Searching for who I am.

Being someone in a world with billions of people makes me wonder if I’m where I’m meant to be and If I am who I’m meant to be. Trying to find who you are can be hard but I guess I’ll start with a road trip. Around the world, in a small caravan. Maybe If I find a place to call home, then I can find out who I am.

I will set off in my newly renovated caravan with no plans or directions on where to go. I will just drive and drive, night and day until I find a place to call home. Who knows, maybe I won’t find a place and I will end up back where I started but at least I’ll know that this really is the place to call home. A small country town, with familiar faces and family but first I need to leave.

I drove to a small town and I found myself surrounded by unfamiliar faces, dirty streets and lots of stray cats and dogs just roaming around the streets, I think to myself “would I be able to call this place home?” Definitely not, I couldn’t see myself living in the place and so I got back in my caravan and set off, back on the road again I go.

I was on the road, driving for miles and miles. Through towns and cities. I begin to think to myself “maybe I’m insane for doing this” but a road trip never hurt anyone. If anything it helped me think about a lot of different things.

“I’m really not happy with my current job.”

“I’m really not happy with the house I live in.”

“I’m really not happy in that town.”

“I’m just not happy.”

I need to find a place to call home so I can find myself.

I drove for a couple more hours and pulled into a petrol station. As I was filling up my car, I seen a sign saying “forever bay 20km.” Well guess where I was headed after I filled up my caravan? That’s right, I’m going to forever bay. It sounds so beautiful and it just sounds right.

I hopped back in my caravan and followed the road to forever bay.

And there it was, I knew the moment I seen it. This is the place that I will and can call home. I’m surrounded by friendly faces, beautiful cafes and shops and beaches that are filled with people and children. This is home, I know it is.

After a couple of days of roaming around forever bay, I found a beautiful house right on the beach and it had a “for sale” sign out the front. I rang the number on the sign and organised to have a look, I needed to know for sure if this house was right for me. I waited out the front as the realestate people arrived and gave me the tour of the house. “Yep, this is definitely my home” I thought to myself as I told the realestate people that I will buy this house.

A week later, I was given the keys to my new house. I was so excited, I have now found a place to call home and a beautiful house, right on the beach. So now it’s time to find myself.

I walked the streets everyday, looking into shops and admiring the beach. One day when I was looking into a shop window, I came up with an idea. I will work from home, making personalised gifts and accessories because who doesn’t want those sorts of things?

I bought everything that I would need to start my own small business, I came up with a name “JustThings” I called it. As surprised as I was, my business turned out to be a big hit. I had to lease a shop and hire staff because I couldn’t do it all on my own. I was receiving so many orders a day, it truly was amazing and I am so proud of how far I’ve come.

I became extremely close with the two girls that I hired to work with me, we do everything together now. We go for brunch, go clubbing, have cocktail nights at my house and just enjoy being with each other. I am so glad that I made that big change.

I now know who I am and who I’m meant to be.

I’m meant to be here in forever bay, in a house that is absolutely beautiful and running my own business with two awesome girls by my side, who I get to call my best friends.

So if your sitting there searching for who you are, take that road trip and don’t ever look back because I promise, you will find yourself.