Wicked Thoughts

Is it bad to think wicked thoughts? Does it make us evil? Am I bad for the thoughts and fantasies I have? Am I bad or destined to go to hell because I liked or enjoyed having a disturbing thought about someone experiencing great pains and suffering? Are these dark impulses ‘NORMAL”? Or am I meant to be a sociopath or a hermit and die alone because I am a freak?

If I remember correctly, Psychiatrist Carl Jung was among the first to dive into a theory about wicked thoughts. He believed we have a "shadow self". This shadow self is feral, raw, our unconscious, our darkest desires. Most of us conceal this part of us being embarrassed to admit to such morbid curiosity because it might be wrong in society's eyes. Others are not aware of this part of themselves.

Then comes the topic of sex...are we not hardwired to think about sex? I think we pretty much live for sex and that everything we do just about is to help us get closer to the goal of sex. Do keep in mind that I do know that not every sexual thought should be taken at face value. Just because I fantasize about something does not mean I will act on it.

I speak of all this and it has me wondering about society, social norms, what is tabu, and really I just want to educate myself - so I found this article:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201509/wicked-thoughts

I would tell you about it but I rather you form your own opinion than take my word for it. But I will say this ....I agree with it completely.

We all have another side to us, it is hidden for some and others embrace it. Now, I am not saying to go crazy evil with this darker side of your personalities, but I do think we should acknowledge and accept that it is alright to have those thoughts and or desires. It may sound like a scary and unnatural journey to take or even too risky for sum. And I understand completely. There was a time when I felt ashamed or questioned my sanity when I even thought about exploring my wicked dirty dark side. But I looked at my reflection in the mirror and just sat there looking into my own eyes for what seemed like hours….finally I said to myself that I deserve to feel whole and to know, accept, and love all aspects of my mind, body, and soul. Simple fact of the matter is, if you deny yourself or suppress yourself then chances are that the wickedness could grow and morph into something more dangerous, insidious, and so destructive that it can feel like you are comparable to Jekyll and Hyde. Fear and doubt will take over and you could lose pieces of you that you never knew you had. Or even worse, by suppressing that side of yourself, you may end up experiencing episodes of psychosis and become mentally unstable.

So yes, I agree that in moderation and within reason - expressing your wicked side from time to time is healthy. It not only allows you to discover more about yourself and your own limits, it allows those closest to you to understand you better and accept you for all that you are flaws and all. You can gain a personal freedom that allows for you to achieve a healthier well-being. Its a personal growth that brings you one step closer to an inner healing that allows for better awareness and acceptance of yourself and others.

There are so many people that think that it is wrong to dive into the unknown dark side of ourselves. And that is alright. Maybe it is out of fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of being judged, fear of not being accepted, fear of not meeting social norms, or even thoughts of not being able to control themselves...For all of you, I say, from me you will get no judgement as this exploration of yourself is a choice and a journey that you have to make on your own.

When it comes down to it there is no right or wrong here...just my opinion. I am all for personal growth, exploring the unknowns, and for pushing boundaries. My views may not be for everyone. So please do not hold my article accountable for any actions and or choices made by an individual. If you choose to explore yourself, please do so because you (on your own accord) choose to do so.