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When You Start Feeling Like a Stranger to Yourself… That’s When the Story Begins

The Quiet Shift

By subah alenziPublished 6 months ago 2 min read

When You Start Feeling Like a Stranger to Yourself… That’s When the Story Begins

I used to think I knew myself.

I knew what made me happy, what frustrated me, and what I believed in.

I had routines. I had dreams. I had a sense of who I was.

Until… I didn’t.

It didn’t happen all at once. It wasn’t loud or obvious. It was slow — almost gentle.

Like watching a familiar face blur slowly in the mirror,

until one day I looked and thought:

“Who even is this?”

🌙 The Quiet Shift

It began with moments I brushed off.

Snapping at someone I love for no reason.

Avoiding people that used to bring me comfort.

Saying “yes” to things I didn’t want, just to avoid explaining myself.

Feeling exhausted even after resting.

It wasn’t that I was “sad” or “angry”… it was that I was becoming unfamiliar — even to me.

My reactions, my choices, my silence — they didn’t feel like mine anymore.

That’s when I knew something had changed.

🪞 Realization Hurts… But It’s Honest

There’s a strange kind of pain in realizing you’ve drifted from yourself.

It’s not like losing a friend. It’s like losing a part of your soul… slowly.

And worse — realizing you’re the one who let it go.

But there’s a powerful truth buried in that pain:

If you’re able to notice the distance,

you’re already starting to return.

🧭 Awareness is the First Step (Not the Final One)

When you start becoming aware of your disconnection,

you don’t suddenly transform.

You don’t “fix” yourself in a week.

You just start… listening.

You begin asking:

• Why did I react that way?

• Do I even believe what I just said?

• Is this habit serving me or draining me?

• When did I stop doing the things I loved?

That awareness isn’t always comfortable.

But it’s real — and real is where healing lives.

🧱 Rebuilding a Relationship With Yourself

Coming back to yourself doesn’t mean becoming who you were.

It means becoming who you’re meant to be now — with your new lessons, scars, and softness.

You start building again.

• You learn to sit with your feelings instead of running from them.

• You stop people-pleasing and start self-honoring.

• You forgive yourself for the times you forgot your worth.

• You fall back in love with your own energy.

You stop needing outside validation.

Because now, your soul is starting to speak louder than the noise.

💬 One Honest Conversation Can Change Everything

Sometimes all it takes is one moment of brutal honesty with yourself.

No masks. No excuses.

That moment might come while you’re journaling.

Or walking alone.

Or crying in the shower.

Or staring at the ceiling at 3 AM.

It doesn’t matter how it comes — it matters that you listen.

🌱 You’re Not Broken. You’re Becoming.

You’re not “too emotional.”

You’re not “overthinking.”

You’re simply waking up to your truth.

And that’s what most people are afraid to do.

So if you’re feeling lost — it doesn’t mean you’re weak.

It means you’re real.

It means you’re ready.

Ready to return.

To rebuild.

To rise.

Your story doesn’t begin when everything’s perfect.

It begins when you finally stop pretending… and start becoming.

recovery

About the Creator

subah alenzi

I write to reflect, heal, and grow.

Every story I share brings me closer to understanding myself—

and maybe, helps someone else do the same.

📲 Follow me on Instagram for more stories and everyday reflections:

@feq65_

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