The Time I Experienced a Perfect Miracle

I find that there is so much beauty in the world and I love my life. I have not always felt this way but after a long string of both unfavorable and favorable experiences in my life, I have concluded that I live a very beautiful life. Every day is really a miracle for me and I am always in a perpetual state of awe, appreciation, and grace. I remember being very depressed as a young child until I was about 21 years old. My life seemed so bleak and nothing seemed to have any real meaning to me. My favorite part of the day was sleeping and I could not wait for the day to be over so that I could sleep for 9 hours. I hated my waking life and much preferred my dream life. I was terrified of the future and where I would end up. I could not find any sort of silver lining and I would recurrently wish that my life was over.

My parents would often try and warn me about how cold the world was from a very young age. I was a rather sensitive child and my parents feared that I was too sensitive for the harshness of the world, so they attempted to harden me before the world could. They would tell me that people are self-motivated and do not truly care about others. I grew up fearing the world and feeling completely intimidated by it. I began to believe that people were truly cruel and selfish. I felt like I had no control over my own life and that I had little to no say on anything that went on in my life. I grew up believing that the world was my enemy and that it could not be trusted. It made me feel alone and helpless. To cope with this unbearable feeling, I would create fantasies in my head of things that I wished I could experience but I thought were impossible for me. I would daydream all the time and create beautiful things in my head that I thought could never materialize.

But sometimes, out of the blue, I would see some of the beautiful things that I created in secret in my head materialize before me. It started as little things and then turned into bigger situations and bigger material things. I felt like I was witnessing the world's greatest magic trick and I was the perpetual volunteer. Seeing my mind's creations, little by little, gave me faith that I would experience something incredible because that was what I was constructing within myself. I had faith that I would expereince a perfect miracle.

My life suddenly began improving quite drastically, but I would have very high highs and extremely low lows. The contrast between the highs and lows would often kill me inside and make me feel even worse. I did not understand and I struggled quite a bit during that stage of my life. Yet I still kept the faith that I would receive my perfect miracle. I did not even know what it would be, I just knew that it would be perfect and beautiful.

Then it happened. One gorgeous spring afternoon, I was walking to a coffee shop down the street from my apartment and something strange came over me. The trees around me became so beautiful and vibrant, the cars passing by seemed to me like electrifying orbs, and the people walking past me were so vital and they felt so perfect to me. I was perceiving things so differently, it seemed much greater than my normal human perceptions. I felt overwhelming bliss in the best possible way. I started to think I had died as it was just so beautiful and new. It felt to me like I had angel eyes, angel ears, angel hands, an angel nose, and an angel tongue because everything and everyone was so beautiful. Music, voices, and white noise sounded heavenly. Every texture felt good against my skin. All the foods I ate at that time were absolutely delicious. And all the scents I could perceive were so sweet. It was an explosion of complete beauty.

I remained in that extreme state of bliss for another 2 weeks and during that time a stream of very beautiful things entered my life one after the other. I eventually came down from such bliss but I felt like a completely different person afterward. I felt so honored to be living and I began to fall in love with my life. I still feel this way today, except, I feel an even greater sense of appreciation to just be alive. I am so glad that I had faith that I would experience my perfect miracle and that I did not let the world harden me.