1. ok its time for me to break character here. i got nothing else to do to write this letter. the letter that will expalin why i did what i did. its the letter that when the one that finds my pale cold skin will find next to my body. its the letter that he or she will read with a tear in their eyes. it's the letter that the news will broadcast as a non lethal sucide letter.
2. hello my name is blank blank, i go around from place to place surrounded by many from near and far. im the guy or girl thats told that always cared about others-strangers or friends it didnt matter- but wonders how many people got me. i know a lot of names and i talk a lot but how many of you really know my name. how many of ya know my story. i'm told that i am nice, caring, sweet and freindly but to most i just come off as annoying, that other guy, the guy you just use up with a smile.
3. sorry mom and dad for not being able to keep ya proud and just know that your baby boy did his best to make your hearts feel happiness and joy. im just sorry i failed you. please dont blame yourselfs. to my brothers and sisters dont let this get you down in your sorrows wondering how did we miss this.
4. i dont got much going for me, heck it's probaly just one or two small things. if that. and if im being honest i just been lost for what seems like a lifetime. my job just pays the bills, my family life is anything from perfect, my freind list is well something. how many of them talk when my back is turned. just going thru my life smiling trying to make everyone smile while they dont look into my fake smile.
5. i just write to get a happy ending for someone since i cant get one. my freinds have turned their back on me once or twice this week. i suspsosly got a pointless crush on a christian girl which i laugh at cuz i know im not good enough. and these bills aint just standing up and walking away. so wtih a tear in my small little eyes i write this character breaker.
6. and i know i aint alone in how i feel. theres what 7 billion folks in this world, how many just gonna bout faking a smile. how many they say their fine when in reality they just wanna break down and tell the truth. how many go thru life acting they are happy when they got no reason to be happy.
7. so many ways anyone could end their dark tunnels. the pills, the blade, the bullet, the water, the bottle, the car, well you catch my drift. but ill never go thru with it cuz ill rather fake a smile and say im fine as i ask others how are you then have them ask themselfs why they couldnt see it as they share a post and say r.i.p. so even if i'm writing my non lethal sucide note dont be suprised if i say i'm fine.
1. ok its time for me to break character here. i got nothing else to do to write this letter. the letter that will expalin why i did what i did. its the letter that when the one that finds my pale cold skin will find next to my body. its the letter that he or she will read with a tear in their eyes. it's the letter that the news will broadcast as a non lethal sucide letter.
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Even though I hope this isn’t your reality, it might be, so I am going to be careful with my words and just say; this is very relatable and a lot of people feel this way as you know, some wish they could put it into words and the fact that you have is not only needed but is very thoughtful.