life after a traumatic event of an active shooter

I just moved to Florida and I started working for amazon in August 11th 2020, I worked nights cause I thought if I worked night I wouldn’t have to deal with people... well I was wrong big time, I was on my way to work on Oct. 3rd 202 and I stopped at a gas station to get petrol (Gas) in Lakeland Fl.. I started filling up my tank on my car.. I heard a lot of yelling and I looked around the corner near the pumps and I heard her yelling grab him she said to me to grab her bf because he was chasing the shooter that shot into a vehicle that had 8 people in it.. I had no idea what I just walked into... and I started checking on people seeing if there ok and a Girl was shot in the back... I have been trained for that type of situation but have never been in one till now.. it was really scary I had to miss work and answer questions from law enforcement... they couldn’t find the shooter and I hope that kid get thrown in Jail big time.. also I hope that girl who was shot is healing up and is ok... I didn’t get home till 7 in the morning because of what happened, I have a hard time going to gas stations because of what happened.. I don’t sit near windows nor my back to the door.. I don’t know why I do that now.. Lately I have been having nightmare about that whole ordeal.. I wake up in a sweat and breathing hard... I listen to classical music now and more because every time I hear a sound I go and investigate.. I wouldn't say I am paranoid but if you have ever been in that situation then you know where I am coming from.. I watch people’s hands and movements more than ever because of it... I check my surrounding a lot and my aunt thinks I am going crazy and she is like you are protected.. she has never been in that situation. but believe me if you have been in that situation how did it effect you???...

I am always checking around the house and every time I go somewhere...even though it’s has been about 3 weeks since that incident.... I worry about my younger sister because she is gonna be working at amazon Air which is in Lakeland which is a crappy town and crime ridden area... I know she will be safe because it’s at an Airport which is great.. I told her to get gas over here in Leesburg and not over there since of everything that has happened... I hope that shooter rots in jail for ever... they still have not Caught him yet.. he can’t hide forever. They want him for eight counts of attempted murder and shooting into the vehicle and oh, did I mention he’s a convicted felon and should not have had a firearm at all. he fired two shots into the Ford Expedition there were 8 people in that Expedition, I don’t understand how one person who was hit with a bullet and no one else was hit since he fired two shots into a Ford Expedition. He ran from the Crime scene which is majorly stupid on his part he should just turn himself into the Law Enforcement.

They had to tape everything off and my car was at pump 1 and I left my phone in the car and I couldn’t call anyone.. I was consoling many people at the scene, I was also trying to be strong for others at the scene because they were crying and everything. I got to leave the scene and I got half way down the street and had to stop and I threw up because of all the stress of the whole situation and when I got home I went straight to bed and cried myself to sleep after I hugged my Dog and rabbit.. and I am thankful that the Shooter did not come back and shoot again… I am blessed to live the life I live..

I have decided that I didn’t want to work at Amazon at all anymore because of the whole incident. I still have a hard time driving past that gas station and try not to freak out and shut down… honestly I am having a hard time coping with that whole incident I have been having nightmares from it..