King Chaz Velks Universe
Autobiography of Charles Andrew Ventura Jr
King Chaz Velk's universe part one:
The back: Call me a god a lowercase g, a Super hero, A highly functional schizophrenic with positive symptoms with all these delusions. But this is a trip through my ever evolving mind and life. Well there's other schizophrenics out there but I didn't have too much of a stigma so learn about me. Lol what are you waiting for. Jump right in!
I was told that all my chakras are open but my heart chakra is weak but open. This could be causing all the world problems with me and what they think about me plus the idea of if my chakras were attacked to look like they were closed. This attack seems to surround me like the idea of trying to give me the diagnosis pathological lier. But if I was diagnosed with that I wouldn't be out of the hospital that a committable diagnosis.
And I'm not suicidal but I will live your going to have to force me to die. I'll find ways till death become the thing that happens not because I did it myself.
People started to see headphones in my ears other things like earbuds and may have even heard what I was talking about but what I was talking about didn't mean I was saying something to myself. See they come at me and say "Stop talking to yourself!" In many different ways. So the idea and the reaction out of me is I'm not talk to myself they get mad and I stand firm to talking to them about what I'm doing and they get worse. What is going on in my head is why couldn't they just say first are you talking to yourself I have earbuds or headphones in my ears why couldn't that question be first. Then if they asked whatever I answer with why couldn't it be the answer instead of it being your talking to yourself.
Jesus Christ name can't be said in vain huh it because he can hear you. Lol.
Jesus Christs blood and some other things don't want me so it doesn't work. Some people just try it and automatically think it does like a placebo.
2008 this all started that's when I was diagnosed with psychosis NOS
My family kept me there for years back and forth I was fighting to get out not take pills no SSI at all I didn't get it till like 2015. And in between I got the diagnosis Schizophrenia. Plenty of doctors nurse practitioners and some students have studied me. And I only seem to keep a doctor or a nurse practitioner when my history and my things that I need to say don't make it to them.
See I see Science as a holistic idea if you get enough of it you will understand. Many keep separating my idea in sections and not listening to it holistically.
Agnostic and universalist are ways not really religions but can be followed religiously and I am a universalist but I found my own way. Plus every evil that y'all may run to get thwarted quickly with me.
So Then note do unto others as others do unto you and I'm saving my self put it together.
Note to Debbie Granett. Also to be put into book.
About the Creator
Charles Andrew Ventura jr
I'm Schizophrenic that is highly functional with positive symptoms (meaning the symptoms of schizophrenia but positive not the bad ones) got my own temporary place and have appointments once every three months. and monitor my own checks.
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