Healing as a Neurodivergent: A Journey Back Home to Myself

Being neurodivergent, the experience of healing feels like coming home.

For years, I was told that Autism and ADHD are simply different brain designs—lifelong static conditions. I was taught that I would always need to manage my mind by restricting myself. For example:

Restrict emotional eating.

Force myself to exercise.

Push myself to wake up, read, comprehend, do chores—just to survive the day.

It was a constant push. Every single day felt like a struggle. Every single activity used to add stress, overwhelm and more anxiety to my Neurospicy Brain.

The older version of me didn’t know there was another way. I believed I had to live in this constant resistance and restriction, because ease, joy, and flow were not accessible to me. I didn’t know that all of those daily tasks could become natural—that they could be done with enthusiasm, life force, and inner joy.

Through healing, I discovered that my unhealthy Autistic and ADHD behaviours were not my identity. They were a reflection of disconnection—from my wholeness, from my body, and from self-love. And this lack of inner love wasn’t just mine. It was passed down through generations.

My father was severely Autistic—but now I see he was simply functioning in a chronic flight and freeze state due to unresolved emotional trauma.

My mother is severely ADHD—but she has been living in a constant fight state, also due to emotional trauma.

We need to look deeper. When we go to the roots of neurodivergence, we see it clearly:

It’s trauma.

Trauma is what disconnects us from ourselves.

Trauma is the absence of Self-Love, Creativity, Authenticity, Joy, and Divine Expression.

It is the internalisation of fear, guilt, shame, lack of Self-Worth. The unhealthy Autistic and ADHD behaviours are the reflection of this Trauma.

The True ADHD, Autistic Potential is phenomenal but it needs Emotional cleansing to shine your Autistic Light.

Healing is the understanding that the power within us is greater than our mind’s survival behaviours, traits, and coping mechanisms. And that power is transformational—especially for a neuro-spicy brain like mine.

I’ve realised that my brain is highly creative and highly logical, but for most of my life there was a deep imbalance between the two. Through healing, I came to understand this imbalance came from the energetic imprints I inherited from my parents—their thoughts, beliefs, emotional disconnection, and coping patterns.

These default energies restricted the natural flow of ease in my nervous system. They were my starting point, but they didn’t have to be my end.

The more I practiced breathwork and began regulating my nervous system—through various healing modalities—every single day, the more I began to feel an inner ease I’d never known before. This ease was missing my whole life, and its absence was causing a dis-ease that showed up in every part of my day.

The more I reconnected with the wholeness within, the more I noticed:

• Joy returning to my face and my eyes

• Improved communication and emotional expression

• Enhanced ability to read, write, comprehend, and navigate life from a place of calm

• A shift from overwhelms to empowerment

This inner ease is deeply authentic. It has become my safe space. It has softened my emotional sensitivity and released my need to escape myself. I am no longer hiding or masking.

Our brains are meant for creativity, expression, communication, and eccentric thinking. Healing has given me the courage, strength, and internal tools to show up in my True Essence.

This is not just self-acceptance—it’s Transformation.

I’m not merely managing my symptoms or learning to live with my "limitations." I’m actively outgrowing the old patterns and coping mechanisms. And the changes are visible—in my physiology, my energy, and in the ease, simplicity, and joy of everyday life.

I now know: just because my father was autistic and my mother is ADHD, I do not have to accept the limitations of my mind. I can transform these traits. I can allow my true potential to rise.

It’s about operating from an Inner Ease—inside your head, your heart, your nervous system. And suddenly, the same activities that once caused anxiety, overwhelm, and sensory overload… start to feel easier.

I am learning to refine myself, with every Breath I release what no longer serves me (the old karmic imprints I got from my mum and dad), and embrace the life that was always waiting for me—just on the other side of healing.