Decisions, Decisions..

I have this interesting idea to post some of my short-stories/free-writing stuff here as well. I think it will ultimately help me grow as a writer and I like the idea that a piece of me will be out there in the void of the Internet and whoever comes across it, comes across it. Whoever doesn't, well...I guess they just don't see it?

I don't really know where I was going with that. I just know that this year I lost a lot of confidence in who I am and what I've become. I do not want to go into 2021 feeling like I do now, and "in the age of Aquarius" while we are supposed to be manifesting and working towards our destiny, I think I'm going to work on that and be a little more open and confident here.

I made a promise to finish the series I started here on Vocal three days prior to me writing this little Mental Abstract of sorts here in this post. But this is not related to that. I mean, high-key a little nervous about picking that back up. But anyway, I'll figure it out because my anxiety will not let me forget it. I'll physically need to finish that little project before I'm aloud to breathe easily again. Something new I've picked up here in 2020 is now when I feel like I'm not doing enough for myself or my being as a whole I'll have an anxiety attack so bad it'll give me an asthma attack. As someone who consumes the green leaf for my Migraines and Anxiety this year has really sucked. But I do promise an update.

Also found out that Duck Tales isn't getting a Season 4 so I want to start a story about that, so there are a few projects coming out shortly after this post. But the series I started three days ago will conclude, I promise.

Also Christmas is coming up and I kind of want to write about NOS4A2. I know it's been an Edward-length of time since I posted about NOS4A2, my last post being almost a year ago. Yikes, I know. Again. Sorry. Mental Health has sucked this year and priorities shifted around a lot. But I kind of want to revisit it.

In fact, that's exactly what I'm going to do.

3 hours later after opening another tab to write it:

The next thing from me will be a NOS4A2 Review thing since it's been a year and an entire season and series wrap up of sorts happened this year and I didn't get to do anything this year. Also it will most likely be up before this because I fell short on this update. But here we are and this is what I'm going to do.

Some more personal stuff will be uploaded as well as different stories or prompts. I spent all month last month writing for NaNoWriMo, and this April I want to be able to post it somewhere and get feedback as I write.

This past November's NaNoWriMo took me on a quest to finding a door that doesn't exist in a room inside your mind. It was a very strange thing to write, but given where I was mentally when I started writing this on post-its back in September it helped me get through a lot of what I had gone through up until that point. Maybe it's only meant for me too, but wouldn't it be interesting if other people thought of their brains and how they work the same way that I do?

And part of me kind of wants to upload it but I don't know if there's a niche for the psychology behind categorizing things inside of your head. These things being thoughts and emotions and memories and encounters. And how that affects who we are or who we're meant to be. I know there's a Pixar movie for that, actually part of the reason I started thinking more abstractly about the mind and mental health was kind of inspired by it. Watching something as innocent as a Disney Kid's movie tackle something not so innocent and even disregarded in some cultures was really inspiring.

Additionally, it'll be a nice mental release to upload stuff again because as this year wraps up I can tell I'm going to need it.