This Is What It's Like To Go Through a Transition While You're In Prison

Imagine being at your lowest of lows and you’ve committed a crime that you thought you would never do. You think to yourself that being a gay boy and going to prison has got to be the hardest thing that you can think of. Now imagine talking to a good friend and figuring out that you are no longer a gay boy, but you are now a transgender woman.

Now you must figure out how you are going to become the woman that you want to be in a place where femineity is the last thing, you'll encounter behind those prison walls. Well that indeed happened to me, I started my transition while I was in prison, and I would love to tell you some things I went through and learned.

The story of how I became transgender in prison.....

So, there I Was sitting in county jail talking to a good friend from the streets. I had just got back from sentencing, and I was looking at doing 8 years in prison for a stupid crime I should of never did, I was scared and worried that I was going to be harassed a lot on the count of me being a gay boy. As I was telling my friend all this, he stopped me mid-sentence and told I was tripping because for one I'm a good fighter and no one is going to want to fight me, and two he didn't see me as a gay boy but as a girl.

I asked him what he meant by that, and he explained to me that I might be transgender and if I ever thought about it. I told him no I had never considered it but as we continued talking, I realized I was indeed a Transgender woman I've always felt that part of me but i just assumed that it meant that I was gay. He then told me what I needed to say to the doctors once I arrived at the prison yard to be able to start HRT without any delay. So, I did just that and after about 3 weeks I was going to the nurse to get my first shot of hormones.

How it felt to go through the process of transitioning in prison.....

Let me tell you it was a roller-coaster ride from the very beginning. First, when I got in the yard, I saw all these beautiful transgender girls with long hair and nice boobs, and here I was this afro-having gay boy just wondering how on earth was I going to pull that off. I say my first year was the hardest cause it took my body a little while to start to transform but I did see the change and so did the “Boys”.

Now I knew Nothing about this lifestyle, and I was lucky that some of the more advanced girls on the yard took me in. They answered any questions I had and shared with me the tricks and tips on being “womanlier” and how to carry myself on the yard.

Now Some of these girls I met were mean and didn't even bat an eye at me and that made me feel hurt cause I would think that ALL the girls on the yard would be more than willing to be friends and help a girl out in need....I was SOOO wrong, As time went on I really came into myself and with that came a lot of attention good and bad from both girls and guys. Not only that but the fact that I'm transitioning in a place like this where the Staff calls me “Sir” every chance they get, makes it hard to really embrace my womanhood at times.

So, at the end of my stay, I had become the woman i wanted to be and I was very happy with the outcome. I had learned so much from so many people and I would not trade my experience for anything. I might have lacked the so-called “normal” transition that most people get to have out in the real world but even then, everyone's transition is different and unique to that individual. I just hope that other girls who are behind prison walls have the same or better experience that I had, and I wish them Al the best of luck in the world.