Release

Breathing once more, accepting what cannot be, and what is

Feeling peace from letting go, I feel myself breathe deeply

Did not think I could live if not with you, but I must

Your star is too bright to be dimmed by the void of me

You don't need this, don't need me to hold you back

I see your smile radiate outward like warm sunshine ...

Releasing what could have been, the 'what ifs' and 'never weres'

Though I'll never feel your tender embrace, never be ... more

Still ... I start to smile? Begin to feel warm, breathing again

Happiness from seeing your happiness, I feel it begin ...

'Gunnen'

Immense pressure on my chest eases, daily tears replaced by smile

A soul released of hurt and pain, a heart finds it own beat again

While I will never forget you or what you will always mean to me

And my heart will forever more be yours to claim as you wish

Yet, despite all this, despite my greatest desire and longing ...

'Gunnen' is found ...

A love for you ... A new kind of love blossoms in this new light

One that finds the happy place for me in your happiness

With a smile for you, and for me ...

I release you

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I stumbled across a word recently ... 'Gunnen'

It is a Dutch word that means to 'find happiness in someone's happiness because you love them so much'

(I hope this is all correct)

I feel this word is so appropriate and relevant to me right now with some feelings I have had to work through recently. But I also feel it is an appropriate word for finding that same joy in a friend's happiness, because a friend is also someone you love.