I Just Discovered My Best Friend is a Gay

I Just Find out his platform. We share almost thesame profession in the tech industry, where he occasionally gets some freelance gigs, just like myself.

I got acquainted with him during my second year in college. He was a freshman at the time and very clingy to the point that he became exceptionally attached to me and always seeking my company. He would often stop by my campus fellowship meetings and repeatedly invite me to come stay at his residence and maybe spend the night together. This was practical as he actually lives alone, whereas I had a roommate, making my place less suitable for hosting.

Believe me, the dude is well built and I must admit he is quite handsome, with a tall muscular physique... Though, I noticed he has tried to come close to me in an unusual way but I didn't even mind because the thought of that romantic nature were far from my mind.

There are time he would go naked in my presence, especially when he's done taking his bath but I personally don't bother about that because my mind was not that corrupt, instead I will even make a lighthearted joke at how big his d*ck was.

On one occasion, I told him I had a girlfriend, and his reaction was one of intense anger, as if I had personally threatened him. He was not happy about it at all.

He then distanced himself from me for some period of time but we eventually reconnected again after sometime, and at this time, from what I noticed, he is now in a relationship with a girl, meaning he now has a girlfriend but interestingly, his girlfriend confided in me that they had never been intimate for once and explained that despite her efforts, he seemed entirely indifferent to that aspect of their relationship.

Fast forward to just few week later, when he directly asked me about my sexuality and insisted to know if I'm a gay... I laughed and jokingly told him "my girlfriend is okay and enough for me..." 

He then indicated that he had something he wanted to tell me, he then proceeded to reveal that he had a crush on me since my second year at the university...🙂

For context, I have since graduated from the University, while Jay is completing his final year. This time, I recently relocated to a new residential area that's a bit distant from our college, and Jay was actually instrumental to me and has been the one helping me settle in.

 
He was the one that skillfully handled the paintings in my room, installed all the light fixtures and electrical outlets, and assisted with other interior decorations. I can still recall one evening, after we're done with the day work in the house, it was too late to go back because then I haven't fully moved in...🏠 

He wanted to take a shower and then asked if I will join him in the shower but I just jokingly dismissed it with a smile, then laugh a bit, and then went to prepare dinner for both of us.

During the dinner he was making some advances too but I was not even getting it. I couldn't comprehend what he wanted so I just thought it was a normal play.

It was only last week that he articulated the meaning behind these past actions and I'm just confused about the whole thing because I wasn't expecting it.

Jay has been a very important person in my life and has really helped me with a lot of support throughout my time in school.

I once had issue with some gang boys in campus and he saved me because he knew all of them. On another occasion, I nearly failed to sit for an important tech exam because I forgot my ID at home; Jay was able to retrieve it and brought it to me just before the test commenced. I also struggled with some health challenges, he was always there when I needed support.

Now that he has declared his true intentions, he has told me that a rejection from me would cause him to live with perpetual guilt, given that I am now aware of his identity and desires.

I like him so much, but my feelings are strictly platonic and not aligned with the romantic path he is suggesting and wants. I'm now in a state of confusion, debating whether I should break our connection or give in to his request?

I need sound guidance and a good balanced advice would be appreciated.

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