YOUR Demons

I cry thinking about the childhood

I would have had

Had you just healed your demons

Watching my children grow

And learn and love

It makes me wish you would have changed

I wanted to be loved and cared for

I wanted to grow up without suffering and pain

I want what my kids have

The ability to have been a kid

Had you only healed your demons

It's taken me years

To start to unlearn

the demons you gave me

And even then I started

to learn too late for her

Had you only healed your demons

She now has to unlearn

These demons you gave to me

And I hate that I didn't grow in love

So she didn't get them too

Had you only healed your demons

My other girls will

Hopefully

Not take on your demons too

I refuse to let them get them too

These demons I want to end with me

Because they don't deserve

To continue to live

Had YOU, only healed YOUR demons too.