Young Me

I am sorry I was so cruel to you.

I did not see it back then, how hard you were trying.

You constantly picking yourself back up

after being pushed down by the giant waves of shame and sadness.

That takes courage and resilience.

I am so proud and grateful for your bravery.

We would not have seen the bands and attended those festivals

We would not have met and experienced all those wonderful memories with others.

Thank you.

Growing up I taught myself all these tricks and ‘hacks’.

While they benefited me back then,

they are no longer serve useful to me now.

I am learning to slow down.

There is no need to be on alert anymore.

The danger is gone.

He cannot harm us.

Un-learning those habits

will take time and resilience.

Something my younger self, has experienced.

Without you, I would not be the person I am.

I have no right to shame you because without you,

I would not be the person I am now.

My young self molded me to

an understanding, kind and fierce being.

I might not have everything figured out

And that is okay.

I am on the other hand

I’m a tall mix of curiosity with a hint of anxiety.