You're Breaking Me Apart

Shame, embarrassment, Disgusting, Guilt,

Is it my fault?

Can you hear me?

Can you see my tears?

Lonely is the world I walk,

I don't deserve friends;

I was destined to a life of torment,

Heartbroken,

As I lay here on my pillow,

Why me?

Why was I even born?

It's obvious that you think I deserve it,

Yet, I still speak my mind,

Despite the disgusting words,

From your mouth,

You accuse me of lying,

Even when you don't know me,

You pick on me for all that I am,

And for everything that I do,

I tried to show you friendship,

But, what is the point?

I am still being bullied,

I have been, all of my life,

Even though you have no idea about

what I have been through,

You're too cold,

Careless;

You have hearts that are made of stone,

And you don't care whose feelings you hurt,

You talk about mental health,

Like you care,

But you don't,

You only care about yourselves,

Especially when you are on social media,

Where you can hide behind a screen,

Cowards!

Hiding where you won't get caught,

Beneath the mask of a celebrity profile;

It's a shame that celebrity doesn't know

what you are doing to me;

I'm sure he'd have a few things to say about it,

I would have thought that,

After all of these years,

You would have grown up,

Matured,

Even just a little bit;

You have no idea how hard it is to be me,

To walk in the world I walk in,

Dealing with the severe anxiety and trauma,

Every day of my life,

I've lost count of the tears that fall behind

that screen where you can't see me,

But even if you did,

Would you care?

My self-esteem is breaking,

My confidence fading;

I have worked hard since my school days,

To heal from the hurt,

Anger,

And, the pain that I have been through,

But bullies don't care;

They only care about how tough they can be,

Online, they only care about their spotlight,

And their followers;

Why join them?

I may come across as stubborn,

over excitable,

And I know that I'm not easy to understand;

I have learning disabilities and mental health problems,

I can't always word things in the way you want me to word

them,

But you don't care,

You don't care about the pain that you

inflict on human beings,

You are not human,

True human beings have feelings,

They care about other people,

or so I am told,

You don't care about anyone but yourselves;

You are selfish,

Wrapped up in your own, little world,

With very little room to consider anybody else's feelings

but your own.

Can you not see that

You're breaking me apart with your bullying?

Maybe you can't,

Maybe you simply refuse;

I will stand tall against you,

keep speaking out,

Continue to be the honest person I am,

You haven't won,

You don't care,

You don't have hearts.