You can't purge reality

You can't purge reality ,

no matter how high you get .

You always seem to fine your way back

it's always going to be there , that place

you don't want to be at.

You can't purge reality ,

it's going to keep nagging and picking at you .

Like a mother who won't leave you alone.

And here I am existing,

not even given a choice, if I wanted this.

You can't purge reality,

you're going to have face it

but maybe later, not now

I'll face it someday

but let me float high for now

and I'll come back to reality,

when I'm ready...

to look at it in the face,

at my own pace.

- Written 3.7.2020