Yesteryears

Memories crashing in. Blending together with what was and what is still to come. Wanting, yearning for a life that never was. Seeing it in my minds eye, maybe from the past or just not here.

Things seemed so much simpler then. Thoughts of how it would all turn out and memories we would make, all along walking towards the end and growing into a new person, new daydreams replacing the old, trying to adapt to what now was.

A new life, diverted. Not what was in my mind, darker, sadder, falling apart into the depths of despair. The seeds planted firm, the roots taking hold. I rose. a wall around me, hurting, holding it back and keeping it under lock and key. Daydreams not realized once more. Patching the pieces as I had before

One step in front of the other. Seems a lifetime ago. Things were simpler then. Once when I was young, the time went on forever. There were so many more tomorrows. The sky was blue and the sun was bright. We were free to roam, free to play. We were young and naive and thought there would always be a night and day.

Then somehow, someway the worlds collided and I find myself here. Alone, struggling through the muddy waters of a different day. My wings are strong, my mind has found the way, my heart has realized that it still pumps regardless of what others think. I'm emerging as someone new, the roots have grown and I have grown again, stronger than before.

Realizing the dreams of yesteryear, the longing for a root to plant, longing for the day I'd see the sunshine through myself , the light a beacon as the love grew and grew. Realizing the potential of what was held inside all along as I navigated through the layers of my soul

One minute happy and naive as new as the day, then suddenly darker, fighting strong, navigating through each paths ups and downs, growing brighter through each lesson learned.

Fighting always fighting to find the purpose that holds me here. Knowing there is a purpose, wondering always wondering what it is and how to show the most people through. Holding tight tonight, trying to make sense of the dreams that are shown, the world that are traveled and never remembered ahead of time.

Memories, of floating in the community pool, sledding with my brother until we were both exhausted. Riding my bike, my hair flying in the breeze oh to be so free. Colliding with the responsibilities, daydreams put away, and at times forgotten, all about yesteryear, the simplicity of our days that seemed to last forever.

Yesteryear another place, another time. I will find it again sometime. For now I'm moving forward, a caterpillar longing for flight. A lighthouse in the distance, calling you forward to join me in the light of the new Day.

Peaceful, happenings, love and unity for all. Purposes fulfilled. Daydreams glistening in a sparkly new reality where every dream is possible, every soul is abundant in every way. There are no borders to hold us back, no restrictions to keep us down. We are free, finally free to fly. Take your passions from yesteryear and run with it. For now we know our potentials, like we were always meant to before.

Yesteryear and tomorrow the time and place. Colliding together in freshness, love and joy. This is what's meant to be, it is what should have been. Yesteryear the time before happening before our eyes. Take tomorrow for a whirl. Changing the steps we are stepping and seeing a future that was already happening before.

Take me to yesteryear. Take me to the crisp clean air. Raise me up in love and light and leave abundance here. Opportunities I never had before, dangling right before my eyes. Take me there, where I feel safe to love again, where I feel I belong with things I can share, take me there. Moving forward to yesteryear.