Words I must set Free

Dear Arën,

Penning these words is risky

Words you can never see

Words I must set free

Words I write for me.

I love you.

I don't know when it happened

When your heart, once blackened

When your harsh tone slackened

When your hard gaze softened.

But I love you.

I don't know when the fear faded

When was your betrayal negated?

When were my defenses persuaded?

When did I stop being so jaded?

I...

The answers escape me, whipped away by the storm

The storm that torments me, deprives me of warmth

The storm that exhilarates, beckoning reform

The storm that destroys me but leaves me reborn.

I...

You are the one for whom my soul sings

The one who gives my heart wings

The one toward whom my mind springs

The one to whom my body would cling.

You are the one I would hold so dear

Hold you close and listen to your fears

Hold my hand and let's disappear

Hold me till my cowardice clears.

Love...

I am the foolish child, dreaming once more

Dreaming of the boy who was born of war

Dreaming of the friendship that made my heart soar

Dreaming of the life I could not restore

A once blackened heart may be kind

A harsh tone may relent

A hard expression may grow soft

And thank only forgiveness, not love.

You...

You cannot love me, else all be lost

Love weakens resolve and will exhausts

Love does not relent nor care what cost

Love holds me in chains, the threshold crossed.

Would that you'd never followed me that day

Never listened to what I needed to say

Never troubled yourself to kindness convey

Never leave me alone, don't stay away.

I love you.

And Chord willing you'll never find out

You'll do your duty throughout

You'll watch me die in the end, no doubt

You'll earn the forgiveness of the devout.

And though you'll never see this letter

See that you no longer live a debtor

See that you live a life without fetter

See that you live well, and try to forget her.

May Fië ever guide your pike and mind.

Love,

Rana