if i went down to the chapel today
and fought to feel you
would i suddenly remember your face,
sweet and kind as a child’s?
would you return to me like a dream?
or would it all be figments of the mind
stressing to cope, desperate to sense you?
winter creeps up behind autumn
like a shadow, casting darkness over
memories of you; you died in December,
when the snow was still on the ground
and my footsteps still melted in its wake
now when i walk, it is with the icy strut of
a woman, adult now, grown and too tired
to reminisce about how much i miss you
sometimes it feels childlike to mourn you
i see you in my mother sometimes and i close
my eyes so my tears will stop in the crevices
of my eyelids instead of falling down my face
like an endless silent stream
you make me remember how kind i can be
and that love we had is what i do remember
more than anything; pure human connection
like a thread of fate, thin but everlong
and everlasting
is it foolish to believe in what we cannot see?
or is it useless to fear what we cannot know?
winter is coming, and all i can do
is beg you to come back softly
and without a word
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angela hepworth
Hello! I’m Angela and I enjoy writing fiction, poetry, reviews, and more. I delve into the dark, the sad, the silly, the sexy, and the stupid. Come check me out!
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I feel this one. When you lose someone and there are no more chances to say the things you want, or hear the words you need.
Gosh this was so sad and emotional. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Heavy and heart-wrenching but beautifully done. This whole poem conveyed grief in such an elegant way. Loved it!
Oh, dear Angela. This was heart-wrenching and just so beautiful all at once - the idea of fighting to feel them hard me tearing up from the second line, those we've lost, especially after time passes ... it can be like that, feeling like we have to try to remember, try to feel them, and there's that almost guilt that we can't instantly ... This poem captures the idea of missing someone just so so well, your words are poignant and incredibly crafted as always! 🩷🩷🩷
This is beautiful. Poignant and full of pathos.
i love this piece
"And fought to feel you" is a stunning line.
I felt the longing in this. Beautifully written!
They never truly leave. Beautiful.
This was filled with such mournful longing but most of all love. Hugs.
Your lines beautifully convey deep emotions related to loss and memory. The longing to connect with someone who has passed away is palpable, intertwining themes of grief, nostalgia, and the struggle to cope with the absence of a loved one. 😔 The imagery of winter evokes a sense of coldness and sorrow, contrasting with the warmth of cherished memories. ❄️ The exploration of childlike grief reveals the innocence and vulnerability often associated with loss, while reflections on kindness and human connection remind us that the impact of love remains permanent in our lives. ❤️ The delicate balance between length and acceptance is presented with sensitivity, leaving me to ponder the nature of faith that is invisible. This is truly a profound piece that resonates with anyone who has experienced loss and navigates the complexities of memory and emotion. You have written wonderfully.