Why so negative?

This onus is not going to fix itself

it depends on itself

it deflects on itself

No matter how many times I divert, avert – and hurt myself

I can't seem to change

Just the feeling of self pity alone can bring me the gratification

But why?

I wallow in all this self pity and still wonder why I feel alone

No one has betrayed me but myself

(This was written in 2022)

It is now 2023 and I don't feel the same

This onus is mine and it belongs to me

I am a strong believer of you will get what you deserve, and I don't look at it in such a pessimistic light anymore.

So basically when I think about it, or of it I just feel genuine positivity and it acts as reassurance to me now.

I don't really ask for peoples advice anymore too, because I have sort of learned that this life is mine and it belongs to me. I've also learned I should treat my life as I am catering to a child with needs that I have never addressed before. People undoubtedly care for children so that is why I am attempting to treat the needs in my life like the needs of a child.

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