Who Took My Feelings

Who took my feelings?

Why don't tears drop when I feel it?

Tell me why…Can you tell me why?

I used to lay down.

Comfy, slumber good.

Head rested on your torso,

Hair draping all around us like we shared a silk crown.

Wrapped in clouds and other each other,

We had intimacy.

That skin against skin allowed access to the deepest parts of you and me.

But now I'm laying down.

This shit is no good.

The mattress worn out,

This used to feel like a cloud, why the fuck does it scratch now?

Wrap my arms around a pillow,

Don't know where else they can go,

I'm still to used to the hugging to sleep nothing else feels natural now.

So now I'm cuddling a pillow to sleep.

I'm laying down bad.

You might think I'd be crying but it's different to that.

Cause I haven't been able to feel properly in a long while

No matter how sad it gets, I doubt my tear duct will ever stop functioning as a vial.

So now I'm just numb

A million questions in my head

Just lonely young me aging in my bed

Nobody calling or blowing up my texts

I guess this is part of what one-sided has always meant

Because my feelings have been took from me

and I can't experience any emotion but regret.

Who took my feelings?

Man I think I might have did it