Whispers

I hear voices from afar

Ones that don't agree with a tip jar

Ones that don't give good luck

Ones that place evil in my outlook

Ones that judge me by every minute of the day

Ones that keep gossiping and say

That i will never arise to the occasion

Ones that never take a vacation

Ones that are demonic and want me dead

Ones that i cant seem to get out of my head

They play games when the going gets tough

They always make everything seem so rough

They fight with my emotions every day

I just sit and try to pray them away

But they never stop

My goal one day is to make it to the top

But there stuck in the way

On my bed i drown them out with music as I lay

To focus on my goals one day at a time

They blow in the wind at me like a wind chime

Get worse the more people are around

It's like they wont face me they stand there own ground

They chatter and make me feel unsafe

They scream in anger though i have faith

They shimmer in the darkness that i know

Like cold stormy rain they blow

It's a never giving battle i have to face

I'm struggling to even smile with this face

Looking in the mirror I see shame

Looking in the mirror I see blame

Looking in the mirror I have company

Looking in the mirror i don't want that accompany

To get by is the face them first hand

I write a sos in the sand

And imagine a day of peace

Where I don't hear them in my ears at least

I have headphones to drown them out

But will they go away i doubt

There always there even when i don't look back

It's like a never ending panic attack

They give me the gibbers

These are my day and night Whispers!