Where Are My Memories?

Pieces of memories remain in my mind

leaving me amiss

yearning for more, I reach out

trying to touch all this

Will there ever be more

should I dare unlock my mind

should I open the door

to find the ones I hide?

Aren't the ones I know of him

bad enough to hold?

or is there more waiting

and are they ready to unfold?

What could possibly be so bad

that my mind won't let me know?

was it so terribly sad?

is this a place I dare not go?

Maybe it was just the turn of her head

or maybe the grit of her teeth

and in a moment's choice

she was there; at my feet

When I was small, I told myself

that she wouldn't make that choice

but maybe one day I saw her

and the truth crawled down from the shelf

The time will come when I will stop

reaching inside my soul

to find a little piece of her

something I could get to know

I stopped being her daughter

only at her own free will

the emotional slaughter

leaves me with the chill

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