When Evil Calls Your Name

I was just a young naive girl and you shattered my whole world.

There’s no way I could have known that you were coming for my soul.

My light was bright and you tried, with all your might, to destroy my hopes & dreams.

You turned that small still voice inside my soul into terrifying screams.

You filled my head with poison and turned my spirit mean.

Well, now I see that life isn't always what it seems.

Darkness had taken over but I was born to be a soldier.

Since birth, I’d been fighting for my life. It’s only gotten worse as I've grown older.

Keep falling deeper into hell, listening to this devil on my shoulder.

Losing more of myself over the years as my heart keeps growing colder.

Tortured behind a mask, now I’m using drugs to cope the pain.

Stuck in a labyrinth just fighting, trying not to go insane.

So misunderstood, I’m tired of people calling me deranged.

Walked through the gates of hell and now my life has never been the same.

I’ve been told I have a purpose but honestly feel like I’m living in vain.

You can literally see the evil pumping through my veins.

My soul’s a dark stallion and the demons control the reins.

Coming with a vengeance, just know that we you can never tame.

So many fighting for the light, it’s getting harder to maintain.

I’ll never get reprieve though, because the devil lives inside my brain.

The pain, I’ve felt for so many years, brings thoughts of suicide.

A myriad of monsters follow me and there’s nowhere that I can hide.

So, then I became a Jypze with a wanderlust inside.

They said, “We travel together because we live inside your mind.”

Although, I’ll smile in your face while I lie and say, “I’m fine.”

You see, to toture silently is something I do all the time.

To dim my light, that shines so bright, was all part of their design.

I now know what my purpose is and there's no more asking why.

No more going through the motions. No more simply passing by.

I can’t even count all the nights I begged & wished to die.

Praying for the day my body turns to ashes, to let my spirit fly.

I just know there must be more to life than fucking getting high.

Now I’m screamin to the heavens, “Can you hear my battle cry?”

Understand that there’s a hunger deep within, that I must satisfy.

Inevitably, temptation always wins because I have a lustful eye.

Stuck in traps of denial due to ignorance & pride.

I feel them taking over , got me like Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde.

No matter how much I pray, the Evil Whispers won’t subside.