What now

here we are again, trapped in another abyss, an abyss of questions, with no answers,

like messages left unopened,

like feelings left unspoken,

I wonder why sometimes, why I always end up in this void, this place, this lonely place, this joyless lonely place, a place I’ve made my home, a place I wish I’d never known.

The beginning is different but the end is always the same, maybe I’m the blame?

I hurt to live in different void, one where I’m free from the noise, one where it’s just me myself and I, where you don’t exist and neither do I.

So what do I do now, where do we go now, everything feels empty and I’m afraid to have empathy.

Please forgive me for I am only a girl, a girl with a heart, brain, and soul. A girl with feelings, flesh, and bone. I just want to know should I come or go?

What when why and you.