What If He Was Never Worth It?

It's clear now: he's not worth it.

Your long-suffering pain isn't worth it. Your repeated self-doubt isn't worth it. And it's certainly not worth it for you to foolishly pour such pure, passionate, and unreserved love onto someone who never intended to truly receive it.

It's not that he's a bad person. Perhaps he was a little moved by you, and maybe, for a fleeting second, he genuinely wanted to be close. However, he didn't choose you consciously and firmly. He didn't open his arms when you desperately needed a hug. He cared more about his own freedom, dignity, and comfort than your well-being and future. To put it bluntly, any kindness he showed was merely for his own momentary gratification, not for the sake of your shared future. This kind of tenderness is cheap and perfunctory; this kind of "love" is as fragile as a soap bubble. So, truly, he doesn't deserve your sincere love.

What you've lost isn't the person who could accompany you until old age. What you've lost is merely a boy who hasn't grown up, a child who can't even truly take care of himself. You, on the other hand, deserve someone who makes you feel at ease just by being near them, without you having to constantly test or be cautious. I want to offer you a piece of advice, please remember: if you love seriously, that is your light, and if he doesn't deserve you, it is not your fault.

It's not as if he's never been in love or never been hurt. But what he experienced wasn't growth; it was escape. Some people have had three or five relationships, yet each time they only know how to take, not give. Some people have changed countless partners but have never dared to truly go deep, never dared to take responsibility. Some people have been hurt, and instead of learning to cherish, they've learned to protect themselves more ruthlessly.

So, when you approached him with such passion and sincerity, he got scared and ran away. He chose the easiest path: to make you weary and heartbroken in your love, allowing him to escape safely. Feelings aren't something you can understand just by talking a lot. They are earned through care, pain, and growth. And he always just floats on the surface, never having learned what deep love and responsibility truly are.

Therefore, you haven't lost, and it's not that you have poor judgment. It's simply that you are growing, and he is still stagnant. Please remember that what truly allows people to go further is inner growth, not merely past relationship experiences.

Finally, let me leave you with this thought: His immaturity is his lesson, and your growth is your light. You were simply destined to be at different stages, destined not to be together in the end. It's not your fault.

If you feel a little relieved after reading this, then that's exactly right. You didn't lose to anyone; you simply graduated from the wrong life course. May you navigate all the thorns and still remain soft-hearted, still be passionate, and still believe that the future is truly worth looking forward to.

Thank you for reading!