what do i say

These are questions that confuse me

So I bury my doubts in myself

I am not what I am wanted to be

So I go far in my boldness

To enjoy my opinion

Or protect my secret

Whenever time is lost on me

If my news spreads

It may restrict my mind

My intentions will not succeed

And if my end approaches

I may lose my position

And I must reveal it

Whenever I shake hands with my luck

So that it does not leave me

So what do I do...?

If longing comes to me

Should I distance myself?

Or do I get used to my weakness?

If my will is absent

My dignity may be humiliated

And I am a firm man by nature

I do not deny my past

And I do not doubt my dream

So how do I pave my way?

And I am not confident in myself

When do I care about my present?

If I do not belong to it

And where do I go?

If my right is lost

I was not the master of my affairs

What do I understand?

If fate is my lot

Or habit becomes my way

I may lose all my hopes

And if I reveal my ignorance

Remorse may kindle my pain

And if I deny myself to others

They will surely conspire against me

And if I boast of my position

My mind may rebel against me

Because I break my silence

And declare my infallibility

And yet my reputation may suffer

Or the color of my character may change

Because I do not deny myself

But I dream of my happiness approaching