Wet Sushi

Everyone left, but I was hoping you would stay

I had false hope we’d make it

You almost convinced me to do something completely insane

I almost compromised my hopes and dreams just to have you around

I was almost willing to give it all up JUST for your love

But I’m glad I can still say almost

You were the one that broke me

I really did love you with every part of me

Even when I knew the truth, I still hoped you would ͏one day love me the same way

I fell in love with you because you were dangerous. Reckless. Unconventional. Deep.

So much more encompassed you, even you took it for granted

I let all of the good I saw in you overshadow what was really happening between us

I’ll never forget the last day we spent together; I close my eyes and can see it so vividly

I’ll never forget that last kiss

You were standing at my door at 3 in the morning and you didn’t want to leave

You knew I already made my decision

The way you looked at me - I knew you would miss me

We both knew that was the last time we would see each other

We knew it was over

I wasn’t willing to settle for you anymore

I wasn’t willing to be mediocre for you

I realized love is not love if I can’t love you freely

I was in love with you, but it never ever felt right

It was always painful and unethical

I remember looking in your eyes that last time

I wanted more and I would never get it from you

That truth broke my heart even more than you did

In solitude I cried for you

I know you felt it. You knew our souls were connected

And even though I’m over you

Even though I know we aren’t meant to be

Even though I know I’m enough for someone to love

I still sometimes wonder why I wasn’t enough for YOU