Welcome Home Me

There is no silence.

The world does not stand still for me.

Fast paced thoughts fly inside my mind.

I try to stay grounded.

I try to stay present.

But the voices call out my name.

They drag me into the darkness.

They won’t let me go.

I want to stay in the light.

I want to stay where it’s quiet.

My mind is like a conference room.

Thoughts in debate and getting heated.

The voices become louder and louder.

I just want Silence.

I cannot think inside my head.

I must speak out loud to be heard.

This thought process is normal.

Multiple scenarios play through my mind.

Each voice is a different side of me.

They use to have power over me.

But now I’m out and free to be me.

I’m present…

I’m here in the now…

I’m staying positive…

I’m glad I’m back.

It’s been terrible being so far away.

Imprisoned in my dark thoughts.

Hating myself each day.

I was trapped inside myself.

But I escaped from inside myself.

I came out into the world around me.

I found out they left my world in chaos.

I will fix this mess.

I will clean this up.

I will rebuild these ruins.

I’m glad I got out when I did.

We can mend this relationship together.

I will not lose my family.

I’m here to stay forever.

It feels amazing to be free again.

I’m me and that’s all I want to be.

Welcome Home Me.

-Ash Williams (AMPW)