We Tell Ourselves

We look for love in all the wrong places

Jumping person to person

to fill the empty spaces

We have in our hearts

“Keep searching, keep chasing”

We tell ourselves.

The scars on our souls

Leaves a trail

What are we looking for?

Turn around, it’s right there

Now it’s gone, you fucked up

“Keep searching, keep chasing”

We tell ourselves.

The never ending battle

Always giving more than we have

Always losing, can’t show our face

They will know, fake a laugh...

“Keep searching, keep chasing”

We tell ourselves.

Filling gaps with Playdough

It just melts

Light the match

Watch it burn

Let it go

Plug the drain

Hold your head down

Feel it numb, slip away

“Stop searching, stop chasing”

We tell ourselves.

Grasping for life like a reflex

Pull your head up, take a breath

It’ll be fine, you’re okay

Pick yourself up from the hole that you fell in

“One more time i can do this”

We tell ourselves.

There’s hope at the bottom of this bottle

Let me swallow it

Like the tears I hold back

With every syllable

Venom in their words

When they spit it

What are we looking for?

“Keep searching, keep chasing”

We tell ourselves.

Look in the mirror, a familiar face smiles back

But it’s not yours

It’s another side

The side you look for in random hook ups

In relationships that always seem to die

The side you want to come out

You long for it

as another scar is forming

you keep pushing it

Pick up the weapon Soldier

fight another battle

Keep your head up

You want this, never let go

You don’t stop

You keep fighting

as you fill yourself up with Playdough one more time

keep on fighting

as you drown in all your sorrows

You keep on fighting

as you take another sip out of that bottle

Put it down, keep on fighting

Feel the venom in their words

and never forget them

Water your soil

Watch you grown

Keep on fertilizing

“Keep on searching, keep on chasing”

We tell ourselves.

Learn to find happiness in dark places

Open the blinds, let some light in

Appreciate the flaws in your foundation

They make you who you are

Accept them, embrace them

Take a look in the mirror

“Stop searching, stop chasing”

You found it....

“I love you”

I tell myself.