Waves

my heart, overflowed.

it’s deep.

my heart’s deep, my heart’s deep

brutally deep

and you forced me to drown in it.

crashed once again, you’ll remind me

that you don’t mind

who’s coming after me

long as I remain in your passenger seat

allow jealousy to rage in every

“where were you?” argument.

it’s petty.

jealousy sinks with the passing months

as I regain my confidence

to remind you now,

someone will be coming next

soon.

deep, it’s deep.

& I want you to drown with it.

your marijuana addiction

& you told me you might be developing schizophrenia

I think you are delusional, but I’m not

sure it’s a diagnosis.

you love my fear & how it turns into

anger & I bully you,

because you crave playing victim

victims.

we’re both victims.

I’ve said I wanted to be with you but i meant

be with your soul,

not your body or mind or ego,

here we are crashing & I’ve learned to ride

thru every accident

since you desire the high

& your lips push against my cheek harder

when I’m on adrenaline.

deep, deep,

& we both shall drown in it.