Wasted On Me

I saw you in the store today, and you looked miserable.

Can't lie or deny that it hurts to see your scowl so visible.

It was a lifetime ago when you would smile as you walked through the door.

A lifetime indeed. We aren't those people anymore.

I try so hard to forget the thing I don't want to forget.

I try so hard to never lose that feeling of regret.

I'll never be that man again. You'd think I'd celebrate.

But I am now who I wasn't then. A paradigm shift too late.

And because of that you suffer. Because of me you fall.

My failure was my saving grace and it's not fair to you at all.

You're the lovely flower I couldn't help but pluck and carry home

Just to stick you in a vase and watch you wither all alone.

If I never get to tell you, I need to say it here.

You were worthy.

I was not.

And I still miss those years.