Unsteady

My mind, a complete pack of puzzle

A 20 by 20 rubix cube, a maze of endless booby-traps

It is difficult to understand sometimes

Especially when I think I have control of things around me

But at the end I realize that I have no clue whatsoever

Life of an extrovert feeding off introverted dishes.

Painfully shy and enclosed yet seeming so open

Like a christmas present Santa had warned eager kids not to open

Talks with everybody, but secretly with no social skills

Expert on the internet chats, not easy going as a person

Everyone loves who is behind the keyboard

But not the person behind the desk

Expectations being cut off, pressure pumped in

People like me do exist, don't they?

Raise your right thimb on your left hand if you are like me

Just a small group of misunderstood aliens

All I did is come in peace but left in pieces

Misunderstood on different occasions

Thought to have different agendas even if i did was mean well

Piece of cloth, thrown away when worn once

No self pity needed here, cause it is irrelevant

Have you ever wanted something and yet give it up when within reach?

Have you ever hated something yet still cared if it breathes?

Oh hey, here i am, heard you are next, feel free to chew on me

I am tired of wanting to be understood

I am tired of wanting to clear my name off whatever thought people have of me

My race has been branded and so the brand affects me

Imagine being in this race and yet being an introvert

And being in a society whose mindset knows nothing but criticism

Not every face shows it, some just hide it pretty well

Someone offends you, you react, you are the faulty battery

You offend someone, they react, you are the faulty charger

Thoughts, thoughts, so many thoughts, somebody help me

No more , no more, someone please hurt me some more

Why does it feel like i got trampled by an elepant's foot?

Am not breaking up, just undergoing Ecdysis

Over appreciation a crime, Under appreciation a sinister down payment

Can someone ask my mind what it desires?

Or maybe it is all in my head?

Could it be maybe all in your own head as you read through?

Do u finally think you understand?

No wait, i get it, he is just a poet

Dont let his words fool you.

Dont let him sweep you off your feet

I never knew grapes came in large sizes

And this one is unable to gulp down my throat

Hey , why don't you just come down?

This is the penultimate bustop

For the trip ahead is so unsteady for you.

Would i be fine?, I am fine, In perfect condition

In fact, i feel like am one with the moon

Who shines in the dark and forgotten when the sun awakens

Selfpraisng it seems?, trust me am the shortest pygmy in the herd

If there is any thing I have left in this world,

It is just one thing, my fighting spirit

Cause last night was an Arnold Schwarzenegger special,

Total recall.