Unspeakable

Unspeakable

unspeakable is the pain

wretched aches

for the inconsolable child

their lack of words

inability to fully express emotions

unwanted feelings

parasitic

as they fuse to a virginal heart

how to quell a sorrow that we don’t quite understand

I’ll hold you my child

until the sobbing stops

incomprehensible to you

as they exhaust you to sleep

my sense of inadequacy at an all time high

self-loathing comes quickly

the inability to help you find your calm

at once the savior to the slightest of scrapes

useless against lacerations to your being

attempts to remove that which hurts

met with futility

pain that robbed you of today

an irreplaceable, childhood day

I sit

the dark a reminder

worthless to your unspoken pleas

enveloped in my arms

as much for you as for me

my sensitive child

my empath

at last you slumber

though I’m left empty

tears cover me

a reminder of my attempts

unable to mend you

left shattered

unable to protect you

against that which you don’t understand

your sobs resonate still

curled up against my chest

safe in the knowledge that I will always protect you

I’m left with nothing but my tears

and the thundering voice in my head

of how I've failed you