Unsaid, Unsent, Unseen

Unsaid, Unsent, Unseen

I want to tell you how you hurt me,

How you’ve made me cry.

I can’t explain how it cuts so deep,

How I couldn’t get out of bed.

You don’t deserve to know you broke me,

Made me question everything.

It says everything that you didn’t flinch.

You moved on before I finished falling.

I don’t want you to know what it feels like,

To be crushed like that.

I’m sure you can take a guess,

That’s why the everyday texts cut to silence.

My open honesty with you

Was never truly honored.

It made me question if I ever should

Put myself out there again.

You led me on like a baby pup,

Tugging the lead left and right.

You fed me lies of “just wait,”

Then left me high and dry.

My friends tried to tell me,

As I recited every story:

“He doesn’t really like you.

Not enough. Not like you should be.”

You made me believe love was an option,

Pulling me from my shell.

The butterflies in my stomach,

Something foreign to me.

We shared so many moments,

Stolen glances, lingering stares, touches.

They didn’t mean to you what they meant to me.

You threw them away, lie after lie.

I’m not sure what made the nice guy

So ruthless, heartless, cruel.

The guy who’s friends with everyone,

Maybe that’s the problem.

The last long chat we had,

I poured my insecurities.

You told me I was crazy

To think I was second best.

But just two days later,

You broke my heart

With a simple line:

“Got a date tonight.”

Now we don’t even talk.

That’s what hurts the most.

The guy I said was important,

The one who said the same.

“I don't just introduce anyone to…”

Making me feel special.

But she was there that night too,

The one you said “it’s not like that.”

I knew that night you lied,

But you reeled me back in,

Dropping breadcrumb after breadcrumb,

Keeping me hooked.

You went public with her after a month.

For us, it took two.

Ten months of friendship meant nothing,

Thrown away for someone new.

She’s someone from your past,

She knew you way back when.

But where was she when I was falling?

Showing up to steal the end.

I can’t explain how I felt,

The butterflies in a while.

I questioned if I made them up,

A feeling from the movies.

But I felt them for you.

I felt them so deeply.

Brushing off other advances,

Sure you felt the same.

I keep everything secret,

Only telling close friends.

My therapist knows about you,

He told me to just give in.

To give in to vulnerability,

The urge to let you in.

But that’s not what you wanted,

You only saw me as a friend.

You’ll be the topic of my next session,

But that’s where it ends.

You won’t take up space

In my head again.

You never saw me as an option,

Just a placeholder instead.

Waiting for the one who mattered,

Leaving me with spinning questions.

Now there’s just echoes

Of a friendship laid to rest.

A friendship built on lies,

A friendship that never was.