Unrequited

I have been in love before, but it has never felt quite like this

I’m ready to please you, and offer you my heart body and mind

Even though we’ve never physically seen each other or had our first kiss.

I do admit these feelings developed rather quickly and that made me feel excited, but also afraid

I tried my best to hide my true feelings from you, but you saw right through my charade

One of the hardest things I’ve done is confess what’s in my heart when I already know you don’t love me back

But what hurt the most is when you dismissed my love as just a girly fantasy or fiction instead of a fact

Constantly disregarding me as if I am foolish and not intelligent enough to know what it means to love someone

Telling me it’s impossible to feel this way without being physical, but I promise you that it can be done.

My confession has made me even more vulnerable to you, which is crazy

I wish to God I never said anything but my big fat mouth has once again betrayed me.

You want to move slow. Believe me, I get it. I have been hurt before too.

I know you’re not ready to love me just yet, but why are you trying to stop me from loving you?

I am not allowed to compliment you, worry about you, or give you gifts and that has been annoying so far.

It's like you want me to hate you or feel uncertain about what an amazing man you are.

How? You’re always encouraging me, inspiring me, and stimulating my body as well as my mind,

All while boosting my confidence and making me laugh - these qualities are all very difficult to find.

Every time I close my eyes, I see your perfectly toasted almond skin, deep dark eyes, kissable lips, and sexy chest.

I love your scruffy beard, chubby belly, and your big strong hands are the perfect size to grab and hold my breast.

I'm sure you're probably tired of hearing how I feel, but please know that my heart is open and you are definitely invited.

But for now I will just keep on giving you my love, even if it is unrequited.