I never seem to live in the present
Distracted, eyes glazed as I tick off whatever checklist in my mind
That’s why I’m surprised you could break through
So now I’m here; the hamster wheel undermined
You say my name
I hide how mesmerizing I find the warmth of your smile
I need to learn more
But putting myself out there is not my style
Wait, what was I worrying about before I saw you?
The checklist fights against the sudden withdrawal
Face flushed as I long to sit closer
Anxiety dissolves; my heart overrides it all
Details elude me, but I could name every color in your hair
Why is your voice what shattered my internal prison?
The smell of your shampoo intoxicating
An accidental touch threatens to remove my inhibition
I must be confused
Exhausted from searching for this feeling with a man with no success
And here I find it with a woman
Unless…?
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Crystal Mae
Founder of an organization that helps at-risk individuals receive therapeutic services. After being diagnosed with PTSD and MS, I began a journey of healing and self-discovery through empowering others.
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