Truth

They say the truth will set you free, and in that truth, YOUR truth, the smoke will clear and your heart opens. Gee, please let God in and let Him heal all the hurt this painful world bestowed upon you. Am I ready? Am I scared? I am all the above, but most of all I am tired. Tired of the constant fear of my skeletons coming out the closet that I hid so well...so I thought. I let the pain of this cruel world get the best of me, that I drowned it all out with just one toke...Blowing out thick white smoke; I am flying freely. I am in a state of ecstasy and I feel nothing, but when that smoke clears...it's just gee, me and my demons; that I've been fighting alone in the dark for sometime now that it manifested into the devil on my shoulder...whispering sweet nothings and I love you's...See I know it's false love, but sometimes any love is better than none. Stay strong Gee, because you come from a long line of chiefs and a foundation built on love and God...so I thought or so we all thought. We've lost our way and our foundation is slowly crumbling. We are living from one generational curse to another. Gee how can we break free? How to start from the ground up when we are too prideful and egotistic to admit our part in this? I just want to be free, free from the void, the pain and these chains I let make a slave of me..I didn't choose to be born and as hard as it is to admit, I did choose to live the life I lead.