To people who I admire…

Dear people who I admire,

you might not know who I am or maybe you may not remember me at all…

I am an outcast.. and I will always would be..

I know you’re super busy and have amazing lives…

I wish I have like yours for many reasons..

but, sadly, I am not…

mine was chaotic— it’s been like a roller coaster that would not stop, no matter how high or how low it could be…

all day and night…

I tired to be more grateful—but things have not gone well as I was expected…

the reality has turned darker and bleaker…

My thoughts were right about everything…

it spokes me the truth..

you might know that i have been mostly excluded and left out, more than others, by every single one from your community— you might not knowing that if I was existed or not …

I know everyone are much happier when I wasn’t exist even if I was around in person or online…

i do not know if you will ever see me again if the future is turning more bleaker than before…

I have might be forgotten for many reasons…

I know I am not important…

I know it feels like that you‘re all much better off without me even if I haven’t noticed it very well- without a warning…

i hope you all take care…

‘you won’t worried about me anymore…

thank you and…

goodbye…

love,

M.