this uncomfortable position of mine

I’ve always wanted to be someone

no matter who, only in terms

of my own skills

it turned out that I am nobody

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so, I decided a long time ago

or should I say, my goal was set so

this bumpy path with no rewards

at least no prizes yet

*

because if you are a writer, you are everywhere

from the loneliest corners of this Earth

to the most crowded places

where a lot happens every night

*

as I mentioned, I did not choose it myself

it was decided by fate

not fatality as such

only so far, it’s hard

*

to raise my head above the surface

to get out of my own shell

because there are thousands of them

and only one me trying my best

*

I am sure that day will come one day

when I splash my skin

in its own successful shine

because I’ve worked for it so hard

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each time focusing on the merits

while some did not hesitate

setting the cat among the pigeons

I hardly ever get off the track

*

every time instead of having fun

I took advantage of every opportunity

to benefit from each of my activities

reading books, watching movies, listening to music

*

every context had its own corner

for thinking and meditation

about the progress of my characters

they are just like us, only on paper

*

we have to give them life and meaning

let them love someone and something

and hate as we usually do

and the rewards will come one day I’m sure

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if not in life, then later

remember, van Gogh only sold one painting

during his lifetime

and where is he now?

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every person on Earth, not even interested in art

knows his name somehow

those sunflowers, irises, fields, chairs, pipes fill

all the world’s canvases

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so, I think it’s worth it

to leave a mark wherever we can

and patiently wait for the best things to follow us

straight to our genre box

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November 2022

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Thank you for reading!