This situation

Whatever I do it's in my back of my mind,

I always wish life could be a bit more kind.

all this worrying will not help or change the feeling,

People say that time is good for healing.

My belly and heads all tied up,

All this time, I'm seeing this all different as I'm all grown up.

Just wanting to change things and go back to make it go all different,

I would have done things a little different.

Taking each time thinking over and over in my head,

repeating over and over what to say to me in my head.

All this emotion in me I try to keep to myself and hide, just pretend I'm dealing okay,

I just want to be around, be there and just stay.

All I can do I hope and hope cant always be right,

All this is just not sitting with me in my head, not quite.

When you hear certain things it can't Be erased, can't be unheard or forgotten too easy,

Lives in you for ages and makes you feel so uneasy.

Somethings you can't or can find hard to come to terms with.

When you feel yourself, see yourself and others around you unravel

You just don't know anymore what happiness can bring to you or others after this,

We always wish in our lives some bliss.

Some tragic things can change people and hard to come back from.

They say take each day as it comes but if you do who says it will make a difference.

Some say make the most of each day but what if you cant, all you do is try your best,

People say when your time comes you are there at your rest.

The amount of various complications makes living seem so bad sometimes.

All this makes your judgement all cloudy.

Just feeling deep down inside the break and the silence you hold is forever in you.

The feeling of uselessness not knowing how to deal with such a mess,

You got to get your feelings out and not depress.

Begging and thinking to yourself there's time, it's not that bad or things will change but will they?

In life, there are just many patches and at the moment I'm in the grey.

All this but who says this will make the difference now.

All in your head is if there's the point but deep down you know best trying then not at all.

Best doing whats best for you but need to also take into consideration best for them or others to.

Some people take care and get on better than others, each person deals with it differently and each feeling in time is different for each person,

Now and again sometimes the thoughts and feeling can worsen.

Whatever happens, will be in the back of my mind,

All the feelings we all know they're not kind.

All this worrying is not helping my thinking,

I can feel this feeling in my body that's like a sinking.

All this is making me unwell and won't help matters.

all this time I have now, realise I need to make it all matter.

But all this and I know sometimes this will be all better in time.