This Painful Prison

Last night,

We fought

Because you tried to erase me,

Minimised my every thought,

Refused to listen to every word,

You decided only your views counted,

You didn't like me,

Because I opened up,

Took off the mask,

And, showed you who I was,

Not the person you wanted me to be,

For many years,

I hid under cover,

Walked on egg shelves,

Tip-toed around my mind,

And left myself behind,

I refused to open my mouth,

Be honest with myself,

Because you tried to turn me,

Into someone else,

You refused to acknowledge my orientation,

It was when I talked to women,

Not ok when I talked to men,

But it was ok for you to flirt,

In front of me,

Behind my back,

You felt uncomfortable with my attraction,

You locked me behind bars for my polyamory,

You hated it when I spoke about my openness

to love,

Eventually, you agreed,

But only to keep peace with my need,

You only felt comfortable if I lived your way,

Didn't like me when I refused to comply,

You were proud when I did things your way,

Angry, when I did them mine,

You didn't like me going out alone,

Tried to keep me locked in my home,

But I need friends,

you see;

My life is not complete without my

social being,

And here we are once again;

In this painful prison,

You call love.