This is Mental Illness

Having a mental illness is exhausting.

Ask anyone who has one.

The mental chaos is draining.

Even having a day in bed can be exhausting.

It’s the kind of tired that can’t be cured with sleep.

It’s soul deep and goes all the way to one’s core.

Having a mental illness is like living with a constant war going on in your brain.

Everything on the outside might be fine but on the inside it’s life and death.

For example, on the outside my life is ok right now.

I have a good support system and a stable place to live.

I have an amazing therapist and my puppy.

But my brain is full of chaos all the time.

It feels like I’m constantly in danger and could die at any moment.

No matter how many times I tell my brain that everything is ok, it doesn’t believe me.

This is mental illness.

Having a mind that betrays you.

Having a mind that fights against every healthy thing you do.

Sometimes even having a mind that wants you to kill yourself.

This is mental illness.

It is no small feat to live with.

People with mental illness are the strongest people I know.

If you have a mental illness know that you aren’t alone.

Know that there are other people who feel the same as you.

You don’t have to fight this alone. ❤️

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