this boy

shadows in distance

he's grey by heart and red by name

and I never knew that he eventually came

he did

and he watched me

without saying anything, he watched me

he watched how I was turning myself

from bright green and yellow

to grey and red bellow

green cause his eyes were brown

yellow cause he was a up only at night

this boy who appears in my dark dreams

or nightmares

this boy who annihilates every part of me

or it helps me

this boy who keeps me away from my friends,

or it strengthens my friendship

this boy who messed with my thoughts

or organized them as no one else did,

this boy who never actually came or was always present,

this boy who I am waiting for

or had had enough of

only by

shadows.