These Colors of Love

I was conceived on a double rainbow day,

you probably raised your eyebrows and said, okay?

Yes, yes, I know this is oddly specific,

knowing the time or day seems somewhat horrific!

It’s a story my parents told that stuck in my brain,

my Dad has a picture of them, hung in a frame.

When I look at it I laugh and can’t help but say,

it shouldn’t have been a surprise I’m some level of gay?!

Rainbows make me so happy in every shape and form,

that giddy rush of joy that is far past the norm.

It’s a feeling of recognition that I feel at my best self,

when I see all those colors that to me- signify health.

Because to me the best thing about a rainbow isn’t necessarily it’s beauty,

it’s that all those colors work together to create a sense of unity.

And the thing that makes that aspect sing so happy in my heart,

is that the colors of the rainbow are magnificent together as well as apart.

It shows me that you never have to be one thing or another,

but instead you can be everything and you’ll always have something to discover.

On some days you may need every color to carry you through,

but on other days just one color is enough to inspire you too.

Maybe Monday you feel particularly Red - freeing the passion in your heart,

instead of listening to silly voices in your head - that would rather you fall apart.

Tuesday becomes a day you are undoubtedly Orange - pushing energy into the world to accomplish results,

you’d rather fight fire with action than to indulge someone’s rude or petty insults.

Wednesday is a time of sunshine Yellow - the kind that makes you full of joyful thoughts,

on this day you remember to tell your friends and family how you love them lots and lots.

Thursday isn’t your best day as you start to feel Green - this one leaves you sad and jealous,

you realize inner comparisons just tend to make you mean when you’d rather be selfless.

Friday is a day that ends up to be Blue - a calming ocean that reminds you of your truth,

you let go of influences that almost consumed you and threatened your youth.

Saturday is busy and you have to indigo/go/go - till you feel like you’ll fall,

but in the small moments you stop and look, you realize you have it all.

Sunday is the time that you reflect in Violet - with rays of cleansing energy,

in this color you are able to bring yourself back to center and synergy.

And some weeks or months or maybe even a year,

you’re a rainbow every damn day cuz you need help staying here.

All those colors support you and help you to stay whole,

you celebrate and laugh to heal your inner soul.

In those times that you’re your own rainbow you don’t have to fear,

for you are wearing the beautiful banner of what it means to be queer.

We are not an item that fits perfectly into a single slot,

we are a person that feels and loves and encompasses a lot.

Seek shelter in us and we will cover you with our colors,

whether you are our friends, our family or all the categories of others.

Together when our lights shine we become a single prism,

a fantastic force that forms a sanctuary instead of a prison.

It’s taken a long time for me to find who I am and where I belong,

most days I’m still learning verses that make up the whole song.

But the colors of the rainbow with their many shades and hues,

have always helped to ground me and have somehow become my muse.

I’ve accepted that I’ll probably never get to the glowing end of the rainbow,

and that makes me happy, it’s not somewhere I truly want to go.

I’ll live in my double rainbow day as long as time will allow me,

and in each day remember - that these colors of love are what found me.