The Story of Lu III

"I give you this gift: my memories wrapped in metaphors and love, mixed with the poetry I've written of our time together."

One day you asked what my type was. I wanted someone who was social and could do all the talking.

"Check"

I wanted someone who was both into sports and into video games. You were a football player and a nerd. So you gave me another check. I liked the idea of the other guy who was taller than me. You were three inches taller and you jokingly started calling me "Short Stack." I said I wasn't very sure about anything else and your ego flared. You were all of that...of course you were. You would be everything I'd want. As we grew, you stayed that way, always being what I'd want.

You told me about this man named Josiah. He was apparently a guy you would shower with and sleep with. You would tell me how cute he was. How you loved his butt. You used him to make me jealous. Years later you told me he was never real. I had never been jealous before. Even with my ex-boyfriend. I didn't like that feeling.

"Bind my feet to this earth as if the tides can't wash me away.

Tie my hands to this home we built because I never wanna move on.

Lay my heart with yours so I never have to leave your side."



Another time you were trying to prove just how nerdy you were. You told me about your dozens of rubix cubes. I couldn't help but laugh. You were a weird type of nerdy. I already knew that though.

Your personality was always sort of a mix between Goku and Batman. You intended to be that way. I don't even remember why but that conversation led to us sexting. Afterwards I made a joke that our luck would make it so we'd be about to have sex and you'd step on a rubix cube and break your back. I wish I knew how accurate that was.

Every minute we talked, we only drew closer. I was struck with cupid's arrows and amor was only four letters away. Loving you happened in three steps and I would run a mile for it all to happen again. I may have been a calm sea. You were always the moon that pushed me to move though. I thought I was the fire but I was only ever that when inspired by you.

"'I told you I'd change

even when I never could.

Know that I can't find anybody else

as good as you...'

-Kid Laroi

You said you loved her

and I begged you to love me.

I got down on my knees

and I offered every inch of me.

You asked me for help,

every single time

I gave it all up.

Even to my own detriment.

Glass cuts fragile skin

bones break under these lead feet

trees burn when struck by lightning

I cry every time I think of you."



Springs turn to summers and our love became heated. You broke up with your girlfriend and I thought for one second we stood a chance. You needed a second. I encouraged you to take it. I thought I'd wait.

Three days is all it took. Though not the way destiny hoped for. I said something flirty. I think I said something about wanting a kiss. You lost it. You told me that you were no longer bi. You were straight now. I was lost. What had even happened?