The Pain Before Rebirth

Nights are the hardest

When the high fades

The memories come flooding back in

And it hits me like a force

All I can do is lie in bed and cry in silence

Until it doesn't hurt anymore

I don't miss you

I only miss how I felt in those moments

Then I remember the end

I cry harder

Pillow over my face

Trying to muffle my cries so no one will hear

I hate the hollow shell of who I am after you

Broken, hurt, empty... lost

I gave so much of myself to you

You left me with almost nothing

I almost didn't survive you

And I hate how much power over me I gave to you

But someone found a small light faintly flickering inside me

He saved me

An angel I didn't realize God put by my side

I see the good in him

I felt my soul recognize his

And I began to heal

But hesitation lingers

Because you shattered my heart in a way that is nearly impossible to heal from

But I try every day

Breathing life into this love I have found

With every kiss, every hug, every smile

A piece of my heart is healed

Finally, I look forward to seeing tomorrow