The Moment

The moment I knew 

I was being watched 

You told me it was true

It wasn't the first time…

I obviously believed you

Terrified 

it took me back there

farther even

And suddenly I realized

it has always been you

The reason everything stinks

is because the dog shit

has been on my shoe

All along

but you keep spraying 

air freshener 

with a mad smile

Saying 

it's a fresh new day

Pointing at the clouds

shuffling me along

Thought I'd never see it coming 

As I slip on down the hill

Stirring poison in my coffee

every single day

Not this time

today my head 

was just too clear

Or maybe your trick only

works once a year

Now my whole life is 

coming into a 

clear rear view mirror

You are the back seat driver

and my hands 

aren't even on the wheel 

You forget I know how you

act and what you fear

Every move is 

a Calculated set

I watched you stalk your prey 

now the defense I mount

is based on 

gathered intel

I won't flail around 

draw attention to myself

I'll make a quick exit

leave like a thief in the night

It may mean losing 

some things I loved

I love my life more

You won't drag me 

down into the grave

Goodbye I'm not 

looking back

I'm saved

K.B. Silver