The Loop

insignificant.

the way your eyes passed over me as I blended into the crowd unintentionally, although I had sought out to seek your attention in some way, somehow.

wasted.

I realized that even if I had poured my best into you, your eyes fell to others and that my attempt would only prove frustrating. I realized that I was but a splinter in your thumb, attached but I knew you wouldn't mind my absence.

reminding.

something about the way that your lips move when you speak, even if you only spoke sweet whispers to grace somebody else's ears, made my heart release a drawn-out sigh of exhaust. It reminded me twice that you weren't mine, but rewound my patience for your heart yet again.

plummeting.

And in that moment I fell again; I fell backwards & upside down forever again. I promised myself I wouldn't get caught in the loop once more, but here I found myself in a clouded daze with my feet off the ground; clouds in my subconscious only bore vivid flashbacks of you, and I knew I fell back in love with you all over again.

Katherine Whitesell

02/02/21