The Insanity of Addiction.

Since the beginning when we first started you were never good for me.

I would run away to be with you but I was too naive to see.

Thought you were here for me to take away my pain but in reality.

All you had planned was court dates, death and destruction of my family.

The older I got the deeper your claws dug into my heart and soul.

Couldn't leave you alone even though I knew it was time to let you go.

You almost killed me but I came running back to you faithfully.

What have you done to me? This isn't how my life was supposed to be.

How did I get here? I have goals, dreams and ambition.

How did I get caught up in your web of lies? I’m stronger than this, there must be something that I’m missing.

I have to learn to break free from the chains you have on me.

Please God save me I know this ain't part of my destiny because this road I'm on leads to nothing but misery.

Hey love, it's me. It’s your addiction calling.

I know you're hurting so you’ll always come back to crawling.

Don't be mad at me, it's nothing personal it's just business.

Listening to me I’ll have you believe you don't even have a sickness.

We had so much fun together, remember all the fun times that we shared.

When we first met you were an empty shell of a person and I was the only one who cared.

It wasn't me who hurt you, you know it was everyone else so anything that comes between you and me has got to go

Leave me alone, you’ve made abnormal become normal to me.

Had me thinking I could manage you but you’re just a delusional disease.

Got me saying, "Lord cure me or kill me please."

Lost everything because of you, even my kids and went to jail.

Fifteen years over my head; this isn't fun anymore the party's over.

I just want to live a peaceful life clean and sober.

You’ve turned into a full time job only paying me in pain.

Now because of you my life will never be the same.

My disease is driving me insane!